I lose

I won.
I was not happy, they were
They gave a thunderous applause and cheered out loud
Until their voices became hoarse.
I put on a mask and hooted along
But deep down I knew this wasn’t me
This is not something I deserve,
This is not something I want,
This is not my path to go on;
This is not my part of fame,
This is not my share of respect.
I don’t deserve this post, someone else does.
So I give up.
I was happy, they were not.
I lose.